I begin with an explanation. I had intended to move this blog to it’s own hosting – it seems for one reason or another it didn’t quite work out. So I’m back, here, now – and more ready than ever.
I follow with a plan. I now intend to create a compilation of chapters, a story [...]
Archive for the ‘My Story’ Category
6 Aug
Schizophrenia Blog Revived
15 Mar
Self-Medicating through happiness
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As some of you may know, I haven’t took antipsychotic medication in over a year now. The initial reason for cessation was an overdose of Aripiprazole (Abilify) combined with Vodka and Paracetamol, and after being revived two things happened.
a) I felt a disgust and loathing-feeling for the tablets. Much like after being pissed out of [...]
7 Jan
Opportunities and their influence
The title of this post is utterly and totally unrelated to it’s content, but ‘writer’s block’ took over. Firstly, a little update:
Weds 3rd January: I rang my ‘care’ team during the day requesting an emergency appointment with a consultant. I reported extreme anxiety, anxiety about anxiety (GAD, anyone?) and impulsive suicidal urges (for [...]
21 Dec
Unbelievable. Astounded.
I have just returned from a meeting with a new care-coordinator, and my previous one. They informed me my dispute against the decision to refuse me psychotherapy was dismissed, again by a team that has no idea who I am. They have never seen my face. They have never ever talked to me on the [...]
20 Dec
Music Concerning Schizophrenia?
There is little in the world I could compare to the beauty I find in music. I often search for a song for particular states of mind.. and certain situations I have been in. I don’t think it’s the ‘relating to the words’ aspect as much as using them to express how you feel, when [...]
17 Dec
Perceptions Of Schizophrenia
I had an alert in my inbox today, and this post on a forum was in the content of the alert. I would first like to same thank you to Melis16, the post’s author, for his/her (sorry!) attention to the ‘condition’ and helping to inform more people on it.
I would like to respond here, if [...]
14 Dec
No News is Good News
I have just took a break from working and gave the CMHT (Community Mental Health Team) a phonecall to check on the status of yesterday’s deliberations.
I was slightly disappointed I had not been contacted as soon as something was decided, as I had asked, but I expect nothing more. Consistant failures are part and parcel [...]
13 Dec
The ‘Team’ Are Meeting
As I type from my desk at work, the majestical and mystery ‘team’ are deliberating my immediate future.
This team, whom 90% have never spoke to me let alone seen my face, are deciding whether I spend Christmas inside a psychiatric ward because of ’suicidal and homicidal feelings’. This, of course, the day after I was [...]
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